Alright hey guys, I know I haven't been updating this and I'm really sorry. And so, today I would like to try something new. I hope this is also another way of sharing a bit more about myself. I never tried blogging about my diary on my blog, but I would like to try it for today's blog post.
As the title says 12:51 A.M. , it means I wrote my diary for yesterday's event (10 July 2015) and I would like to share it.
Let's begin . . .
- p.s. it might not be structured correctly because it's my personal diary.
Saturday 11/7/15 12:51 am
Rained in the morning / cooling after that
Today was surprisingly manageable.
First, though it rained in the morning, it was cooling and no need to assemble at the parade square.
Second, I collected my identification card (IC) after school though my face look like shit.
Third, I didn't get scolded / lectured at tuition today. Gladly :)
OH, and I went for counselling today during recess and was late for Biology lesson. It was pretty tough for me. It just felt weird talking to an adult. Though I did not come clean to her about my every single detailed feelings and thoughts. It just didn't feel right that there's someone there to listen.
I wasn't only a little close to grandma, it's very very close. VERY. I also feel empty and numb. She asked me how I view about death. These are the words that I'll probably never ever say to her. To me, death is a process that everyone will go through. It's just a matter of time. I understand that people come and go, live and die. Death is something that helpless people would choose because it's the easiest way out. But it takes a lot of courage also. It may seem a coward act but I'd say it's brave. But, I don't know man... to people who wants to live, finds it hard to live. To people who finds it hard to die, wants to die.
Irony, isn't it??
It's a question I wonder. An unanswered question.
That's life, isn't it??
-Eileen 01:01 am
-p.p.s. For every diary entry of mine, I would write the start time and end time.
-p.p.p.s. HAHA, should have seen my diary because I literally scribbled and I really penned down my feelings of today. I felt like I've exposed a small part of me. I want y'all to understand and know, it's not your fault that you gave a part of you wrongly to someone who doesn't care. In life, that always happen, isn't it?? Don't be too discouraged by it, because "It's okay to be who you are.".
Always remember, you are a human too, with feelings and thoughts. Don't be ashamed of who you are. You're all unique in your own ways. Don't let what others say put you down. Their actions reflect their personality, not your character.
Have a lovely day/evening/night!!
I'll see y'all real soon again ;)
-p.p.p.p.s I really need to put in more effort in my studies if I want to graduate smoothly for the rest of the near 18 months. Wish me luck!!!!!!! All the best to y'all too.
xoxo
