A note for you...

Hey guys, sorry for the late update. This week has been the most difficult, painful and sad week for me. I don't want to go into the details, i can only say that it's really a tough week for me and my family. And here's a note i want to say to my baby cousin:


Hey Emily,

How are you?? Today is the third day you left since Sunday. Are you doing fine up there in your land?? I don't know if i should say you're with Peter Pan or Buddha, i hope you're being happy and carefree. I hope you're not bullied, and well-taken care of. I miss you, alot. so do your parents and brother and us, your whole big family.

On the 14th October 2012, everyone awaits for your arrival. So do i, because our Chinese zodiac is Dragon. Your cries broke the silence in the delivery suite. Here you come. Everyone awaits to see your pretty face, there you are. Smooth curly hair, bright eyes, nice nose, rosy cheeks and pinkish lips.

I have yet help you change diapers, bring you to shopping and take care of you. The 1 year and 1 month plus of being with you made my feelings go deeper for you. But now you've left, i'm having a heartache and hard times trying to adjust the absence of you.

I miss the way you cry for milk. I miss the way you play with me, us. I miss the way you smile. I miss the way you liked to stuck out your tongue. I miss the way you play with your toys. I miss the way you roll over the bed. I miss the way you put your mushroom toy into your mouth like a pacifier. I miss everything you do. I miss every photos we took. The photos of us in my wallet will be a remainder of you. I miss you. I love you too.

Everyone cried when seeing you sent to the crematorium so do i. But now you're no longer with us...
I'll talk to you, through the stars. Whenever the stars blink, i know you're blinking at me. But i really can't control my tears whenever i think of you... I cried whenever i think of you. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU TOO.

xxx Love xxx

Your cousin, Eileen.



I'm sorry readers for the sentimental note for my cousin. And i'm sorry this ain't Chapter 10. I'm currently in no mood to blog. But i'll promise to update as soon as possible.

Song for my mood now:

When you're gone by Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

 

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

 

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

 

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

 

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

 

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

 

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

 

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

 

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah

 

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

 

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And when you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

 

And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear will always get me through
The day and make it ok
I miss you

First Poloroid With Emily

Emily's 1st Birthday Chalet

Younger version of me and Emily

 


~Twisparkle.