Life has been like on the Ferris wheels, when it brought me upwards, I could see the whole picture but when it brought me down, I only saw things to a certain extent. But, it taught me to view things at different aspects.
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******** Jane Sherlock's POV ********
We kissed.
There's sparks.
It was incredible.
I pulled back, leaning our forehead against each other's. My eyes were closed, enjoying the moment.
"Jane."
"Hmm..."
"Open your eyes."
"No."
"Why?"
"Cause no."
He snickered and asked again.
"Open your eyes, pretty please with strawberry tops the whipped cream?"
I giggled, opening my eyes and met his beautiful eyes.
"I love you."
I gasped a little.
"How..."
"I love you."
"Why?"
"There's much to explain but i'll tell you that someday. I promise. Now would you please go get ready for the audition?" He pouted.
"Go with me?"
"Yes."
He took my hands in his and walked towards the performing theatre.
*
When we entered the theatre, i already spotted Vivy and the boys. And none other than Chris Devon and her followers.
We made our way to the gang.
"Wow guys, look at him. He confessed." Aidan cooed.
"Ooh someone's whipped!" Vivy cheered.
"Hey guys!" I chirped.
"Hey!" they said union, happily.
"So, did the dude just confessed?" Darren asked.
I looked at Luke, who was blushing hardly upon the comment before nodding my head and smiled.
"OMG, tell me the details later. Quick go register your name, the audition's starting in 5."
"I'll go with you." Luke said, putting his arms around me.
*
"Hi everyone, glad to know that there's as usual 4 participants. So now, i'm gonna read out the names. First up, Chris Devon. Second, Flo Dennis. Third, Suzy Arnold. Lastly, Jane Sherlock. Let's welcome the first girl." Mr Ernst, the founder of this stupid campaign, announced.
"Hi Mr Ernst and fellow friends. I'm Chris Devon. Please vote me to be the Queen of this campaign."
Claps.
"Alright, Chris. First of all, why do you wanna win this campaign?"
"I have to win because I want to outshine everyone and i'll do my best to be a good Queen and attend to everyone's needs."
"Oh like spreading your legs for jocks?" Some random guy shouted out and caused everyone to laugh. Chris was red with fury.
"Okay that was unnecessary. Secondly, what qualities do you think you have to win?"
"I'm pretty, of course. Smart, rich, have a sense of fashion and besides, I've won this campaign for consecutive 3 years therefore i'm confident I can win."
"Well, that's very confident of you. So, how's your boyfriend like?"
"Well he's Danny Wilfred. He's very sweet, good on bed, good at making me scream for his name and basically, good for me."
Some jocks in the theatre scoffed. Mr Ernst faked a cough before proceeding.
"Okay so lastly, why do you think about girls who self-harm?"
I basically stiffed when that question was being asked. And I knew that Luke sensed that too, he grabbed me hand and give it a tight squeeze that meant that 'don't worry, it's fine, i'm here with you'. In return, I braced myself for a smile at him.
"I think these girls are plainly stupid."
"May I ask why is that so?"
"Only useless girls would harm themselves."
"Okay thanks for your speech."
*
"Alright, lastly let's welcome Jane Sherlock."
Shit, I'm fucking nervous. I quickly glanced at Luke, only to find him staring at me with a reassuring smile.
"Well, hi guys. I'm Jane."
"Hi back to you. So Jane, first why do you wanna win this campaign?"
"Honestly?"
He nodded his head.
"Well, I don't know. It was honestly to piss off some people. But since i'm already up here there's no turning back so I might as well give it a try."
"Thanks for your honesty. Secondly, what qualities do you think you have to win?"
"Well I think I could stand up for people I believe in, people who got bullied and looked down on."
Everyone cheered. The loudest was Luke, Vivy and the guys.
"Hmm that's good. Thirdly, how's your boyfriend like?"
"He's sweet, caring, thoughtful, kind, and he will always know what's bothering me and will always be there for me."
"Wow, sounds like a great guy. Mind telling us who is he?"
"He's Luke Galen." I said without hesitating.
Everyone turned to look at him and I caught him staring at me, smiling widely and showed his white pearly teeth.
"Mm good-looking guy I see. Okay so lastly, why do you think about girls who self-harm?"
I hesitated. I knew this would happened. Shit. What am I supposed to do? I quickly searched for his eyes and saw him nodding his head as if telling me to relax and just speak what's on my mind. I smiled back with a little confidence before proceeding to let the words fall out of my mouth.
"I think they are beautiful. Firstly, they self-harm will either because of school stress or family stress or because they got bullied. People shouldn't discriminate each other causing one's self-esteem to drop. Some bullies often called one nasty names, ask them go die or kill themselves which these depressed people would actually do it. I think that it's wrong to do that. People are all beautiful in their own ways.
No matter who you are, fat or skinny, tall or short, you're always pretty. Sometimes people are just used to being sad and alone, that he or she forgot how to be happy. And sometimes, the same question like 'are you okay' is being asked, the always same lie 'i'm fine' is being replied. And I find that very unfair to those who's got bullied. Some people just think its cool to have one being pressed under them. But they do not even care about the pain that's emotionally killing them slowly. It's really unfair to see people self-harm because bullies out there caused them to.
It's really un-cool to bully people or speak bad of them. Imagine you're the one getting all these insults, how would you feel? I know how it feels to be fat and people around are just so insensitive to your feelings. Like seriously, what's wrong with society? People make fun of people who are fat. People say you have anorexia when you're damn skinny. You can never please the people.
So everyone should help each other. Feel proud in who you are. Be proud of yourself and don't be afraid to seek help if you're self-harming. I know it's difficult but at least try. It won't hurt for trying. Feel proud of your skin. No matter who you are, as long as you heard these, don't doubt my words because they're true. And always remember i'll be here if you need me.
Therefore, everyone should surrender to what it is, let go of what was and have faith in what will be. So reach out to help your friends who have been self-harming." I said, tearing up.
"Wow, that's an amazing speech."
Everyone stood up, some crying, cheered for me and clapped.
"Thank you."
"I hope you don't mind but how do you know so much? I mean how did you able to feel so much emotions?"
"Honestly, I used to self-harm."
Everyone gasped, including Luke. I know what his thinking. He must be thinking that how could I be able to say out something so personal. But still, I had to.
"Wow, I mean that's courageous of you to encourage people. Well done. What do you intend to do when you grew up?"
"A psychologist."
"Hmm, impressive. Thank you and have a sit please. Okay guys, I think we'll all have our results for who to vote, am I right to say that? So everyone please choose 1, 2, 3 or 4 and please start to enter now and send it to 1234656."
~5 minutes later~
"Alright, I have the results now. Chris, 4 votes. Flo, 3 votes. Suzy, 3 votes. Jane, 35 votes. So congratulation to Jane Sherlock, our Queen for this year's campaign!"
I screamed as Mr Ernst placed a tiara on my head, gave me a bouquet of flowers and a trophy.
Oh my fuck god.
"Omg you did it!" Vivy screamed.
"Yes, I did it. We did it. Arghhhh!!!!"
"Congrats Jane." Aidan smiled.
"Yeah you were great up there!" Tim cheered.
"Good one!" Ryder laughed.
"Aw man, you made me tear up. Damn you." Darren sniffed.
"Sweetheart."
I froze.
"You were... really amazing. I can't believe you told them such personal thing but I was proud of you. You were so brave and stunning up there when you gave the speech. You totally rocked my heart."
I smiled at how sincere his words was and placed my arms around him, sniffing in his scent before whispering in his ears,
"I'm here because of you. You made me brave. You deserved what I've gotten."
"Don't be silly, you were really amazing."
"I can show you how amazing I am."
"Like what?'
"Come closer."
"Like this." Without further ado, I leaned in and gave him the most passionate kiss.
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