Revenge then Love - 7

Hey readers ((: enjoyed Chapter 6?? Happy reading!! Just wanna blog about smthg i felt.

Wouldn't you feel lonely even though you're surrounded by your friends??
Wouldn't you feel sad and disappointed everytime people ditched you??
If you aren't understanding my fears it's okay. I felt fear. Fear of being alone. Fear of getting ditched. Fear of being lonely. Fear of facing every burden alone.

But who exactly, will be there for me?? Nobody. Getting ditched once is still okay, but consecutive few times, i'm scared. No more of being ditched. No more.

At home, alone is an option i have.
In school, alone is not an option, it's a must.
Fear of having everything then lose it.
I fear of trusting people so i end up building walls that will keep me away from everyone else.
Fear of crossing people's line and made them hate me again.

My only wish for 2014, is that i could start a new friendship with everyone else with my fresh new image. If only things in the past could be left where it's supposed to be.

A new friendship.
A new character.
A new way of talking.
A new way of understanding.

A new way to let you guys accept who i am.

◇  Complicated // Avril Lavigne  ◇

Enjoy   xP

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There wasn't any message from Danny anymore, except Luke.

Luke:
Just a 'kay'? :o

Jane:
. . .

Luke:
Have you slept?

Jane:
If i had, i wouldn't be texting you now :x

Luke:
Haha! So funny.

Jane:
Duh. So ridiculous >:(

Luke:
Chillax sweetheart. Can we play a game?

Jane:
What?

Luke:
10 questions.

Jane:
Kay.

Luke:
How many bf?

Jane:
1. How many gf?

Luke:
Ö 5. Virgin?

Jane:
Player == u know u know the answer :< Virgin?

Luke:
Im a badass but not player, kay!? Umm yeah. Fav food?

Jane:
OMG!! U're still a V?? Unbelievable :')) Chocolate luhhhhhhhhh. U ehh??

Luke:
Shut it please. I got a rep to protect. Ice cream. Wow we're perfect match. Chocolate- Ice cream. Fav colour?

Jane:
There's still chocolate cake xP Blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! You????????

Luke:
Blue too >< are u a gd girl?????

Jane:
U lying? Obvsly No... why did u turn ur back n walk away?????

Luke:
That's two qns too, sweetheart. Cos idk if i wanna help u. Where's ur dad?

Jane:
Wadeva. He's dead. Y u learn the cooking skills frm ur maid n not ur mom?????

Luke:
Ohh i didn't know. They're alws on business trips ö fancy a starbucks now??????

Jane:
Of course you didn't know. He is my dad not urs, dude. Yeshhhh more whipped cream please??

Luke:
What flavour??

Jane:
Surprise me  xD

Oh my goshh did i really sent that to him? ;_;

Luke:
Alrighty. Await for your charming prince in 15.

Jane:
Cocky much uhhh?

Luke:
10 qns alrd >< what's ur first imp of me? Like playground and beach as usual?

As usual? I read... what does he mean? How did he know i like the beach?

Jane:
First imp is that u r a jerk, player and egotistical badass. Yeah how do u know?

Luke:
You can't ask me qns anymore sweetheart. Open ur door.

I knew what he was talking about so i immediately rush down the stairs to open the door for him.

"Hey."

"Hi." I smiled.

"Good evening, Mrs Sherlock." He said while stepping into my house and gestered to my mom who just walked out of the kitchen.

"Hi Luke. What are you doing here?"

"Bought Starbucks and some oreo cheesecakes." He grinned.

"Oh welcome in. I'll put these cakes on a plate."

"Thank you Mrs Sherlock."

"Call me Julie, i'm sure you know my name."

He said nothing but walk away to the sofa with a smirk. He planted his butt on the sofa in front of the TV.

"You said 15 and it turns out 20."

"Sweetheart, i need to travel. Beside i bought you Starbucks with lots of whipped cream."

"Thanks. So what flavour?"

"Salted caramel mocha."

"Wow. That's my favourite."

"Yeah i know."

"Only cause i just told you."

He turned away and i felt him feeling uneasy. Why is he feeling this way?

"Umm it's getting late. I better get going."

"I'll walk you out."

"Goodbye Julie."

"Bye Luke. Drop by often." My mom chirped.

"See ya tomorrow."

"Where we going?"

"You'll see it yourself tomorrow."

"Whatever. Thanks for the treat."

"My pleasure."

"Good night."

"Sweet dreams, sweetheart. Dream of me, kay?"

"You wish."

"I'm wishing."

This time, i shot him a glare which earned a genuine laughter from him. He looks true this way. Not the cocky badass at school. Not the egotistical player at school. Nothing negative. If i met him earlier than Danny and if he wasn't such a badass or player, i might fall for him.

But it's too late...

Wait what the hell am i thinking?

I might fall for him.

Seriously did i just thought about that?

When i pulled myself back from my thoughts, he already left. Out of my sight.

Did i really spaced out so long?

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Well thanks readers for reading. Hope you guys liked it (:

She might fall for him?!?

If she knew him earlier than Danny!?!

If only...

~Twisparkle.