Gib Nicht Auf

Hey y'all lovely souls, please pardon me for any grammatical errors or sentence structures as i haven't been blogging often. The title of the post is ''Gib Nicht Auf' which means 'Don't give up' in German. If there are any German friends reading this, correct me if i'm wrong because i got it from Google Translate.

English translation of part of a German song: Gib Nicht Auf

"Do me a favor, don't give up;
Even if you're thinking now,
That you'll never get out of this jam.
Even if it's sometimes hard,
and you think life makes no sense,
See that the sun still rises again!!"

You guys can go look up for that song if you would like to. I don't know German well, neither do i listen to German songs, i do think this song has very meaningful lyrics.

If y'all still remembered what i mentioned in the previous blog post, i did say that i felt lost, at that point in time. I did a lot of thinking these few days or lately for weeks, some things do happen for a reason. Sometimes, more than just a reason.

There are times when you feel like you can't fit in to your friends' conversation because you don't know what to say. That's me most of the times. I find it hard to express my thoughts or feelings in real life. This makes me wanna keep quiet and be silent because sometimes it's just hard to get my point across. Indeed, occasionally, i feel like people don't understand or that they don't wanna understand. This lead to me being quiet and keeping silent. I don't want to ruin the mood or anything. I myself agree that i am a keyboard warrior. People who know me in reality, could or might be able to tell the difference. I think i 'speak' better online than in real life. 

If you, who are reading this now, feels the same, don't worry, we are all in this together. We are humans, we are not robots. We are allowed to be different and be flawed. We gotta accept the fact that there's nothing called PERFECTION. Being imperfect is a form of flawed perfection as well. But then again, what really is perfection??

There are happenings in our lives that we often use our eyes to see and use our minds to perceive. We hardly use our hearts to feel. We are actually missing out on life, on living in this beautiful world. We are missing out the chance of communicating with one another. We are forgetting the simplest thing to do - talk/communicate/feel.

Don't you think so??

How often do you talk to your parents while using your mobile devices?? Almost all the time.

How often do you walk while using your electronics devices?? Most of the time.

How often do you really sit down with a group of friends and just talk without looking or touching your handphones?? NONE.

Maybe it's time we reflect on our actions and start doing something. Are we humans or are we robots?? Do you wanna humanize the society or do you wanna be humanized by your devices??

There are certain things in life we can't do much about. We can't change the fact that it happened. We won't always find out the reason why it happened. We won't always get what we want. And we got to accept and live with it. I was so used to blaming myself for every negative shits that happened in my life. Till some point in time, there was really nothing i could do to undo what has already happened. 

Instead of asking and blaming yourself with questions like: 

"If only i had..."

"Maybe i should have..."

"It was all my fault..."

You could actually do something about it. Find out the problem and solve it. What do you hope to take away from the self-blaming?? What do you expect to happen when you say all these nasty comments about yourself?? What do you really want??

If you have a conflict with someone, talk things out. Indeed, it's not easy and it takes one to muster a lot of courage to do so. But, you never know what the outcome would be if you don't try. It doesn't hurt to try. Maybe you are afraid of what lies ahead. Maybe you're afraid of the uncertain. Just do it. Just try. Just go.

Confrontation face-to-face is quite tough and things could spiral out of control. But, that's where communication comes in and play a vital role. Conflicts happen when there's no communications. At least that's what i think. Find the root cause and aid it.

If you have a crush on someone, say it. You never know when's your next chance. (Trust me, at this point in time when i'm typing this, i'm guilty as charged. I'll never have the courage to confess because i fear rejections, i fear that my insecurities would be in my way, i fear things go wrong, i fear friendships would be ruin, i fear of so many things i can't quite put my finger to it.) So believe me when i say i know how it feels. People might tell you to man up and confess. Easier said than done. Been there. Done that. 

Confession seems like an easy thing to do but it really isn't. For those who attempted and succeeded, i applaud your courageous act in pursuing something you want. For those who attempted but failed, you are not alone. Don't get discouraged by it. They always say: good things come to those who wait. For those who dare not to try, it's really okay. You can take your time, No one is gonna force you to do something that you don't feel comfortable in.

There was so much going on these past few weeks and i had a mental breakdown. It was hard to cope. But i pulled through. 

I'm the kind of person who just needs time to process and think through all by myself. Maybe sometimes people could give me advice. However, if i feel like whatever you're telling me isn't helping with my situation at all, there's a high chance that i'll shut you out and distant away from you for awhile. I think time is quite important to me. I need time. Alone time. To think about life, to think about school, to think about my friendships, to think about my family, to think about shits that might happen etc etc.

We all fear the uncertainties that's coming our way. When it happens, we just gotta take the hit and brace through. It might be tough, just press on a little longer. Not everything is smooth-sailing. As we grow, we will realise that some things are just not worth crying over or dwelling upon.

By the way, this post is not scripted or edited at all (LEGIT). I don't always plan what i wanna blog about, it just happens and depends on my mood or thoughts at the point in time. It varies from time to time.

Sorry if this was quite a lengthy post but hope y'all enjoyed reading. Please pardon my English, grammars and vocabulary. I got C6 for English so yeah, HAHAHAHA i know i suck at this.

Hope you all have a brighter day and start it right by doing something positive. Or you can just smile. The first thing you do when you wake up, just SMILE. Things will get better eventually.

P.S. i'm trying new styles of greeting y'all and signing off. HAHAHHA!!

Till next time folks!!

e.w.